Maybe it's better this way. Maybe I've made the wrong decision. I don't know. But definitely your heart isn't here, it's somewhere else. Whats the point of holding on when I know I'm never gonna get you. Why is it always the case when it always seem so close but actually its very faraway. Why do I always have false hopes, hopes that lifts me high up to the sky and then tearing me all apart. Even when im so serious, I don't get what I really wanted. I don't understand. What have I done wrong, what have I done to deserve this. What's the point of getting so close when you're never gonna be mine. What's the point of making so many sacrifices when it's all in vain. It's just not fair, at all. I've waited for more than half a year but nothing happens. Yet some idiot appears and destroys the picture. It's easy to love a person, but it's difficult for a person to love you back. And it isn't love its one sided, its only love when its mutual. Things has been too hard on me, too much for me to handle. I've got a heart that is supposed to be as a whole, and not to be broken so many times. Sometimes I wonder if its a curse, that I somewhat cannot fall in love. Ohwell. As the saying goes, this is just life, face it. Maybe I'm facing it right now.
