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Im feeling super down now. Because of many reasons. Many thoughts are running through my mind. What I hate most is the pessure given by my family. Fuck! I can never reach their expectations and they keep rasing their standards. I know I cant make it, but I dont wanna disappoint them so I just try my best. But they dont even see my effort and just scold me. Its not that im afarid of their scolding but I dont want them to feel disappointed. After trying my best to piece things back together, and what i get back in return is they fucking saying many hurtful stuff to me. Kept saying that they wanna give up on me. Kanina bu ah! When I try my very best to study, this is what I get. Sometimes I think their unreasonable, really unreasonable. When I make my stand, by talking back in a irritated manner, they say imma ah beng. chao cheebye. And they only know how to pick only my bad stuff and my bad habits, dont even realise that they make that mistake themselves. wth man! And my sister, only know how to blame me when the com goes wrong. When its gets laggy she say I downloaded too many stuff when I didnt. its she herself that downloaded so much shit. Anything that goes wrong in the house, im first to be blamed. Fuck! I really can't take it anymore. If I have a stable job and a place to stay, I would leave the house. Trust me. I dont feel anymore love at home. No point staying. I think they'll only realise how much ive done when I leave. ohwell. If you wanna give up on me, then just give up no point nagging when it just irritates me. And i've decided that i'll try my best to study. No more weekend gyming, no more night runs, no more pooling, no more basketball, no more slacking, no more sleeping in class, no more day dreaming in class, no more skipping of lessons. Only studying until end of year exams are over. Hai there are still many things to say, But I think I shall stop here. bye