My skies has been turning really Grey, its turning black soon gah!
Family problems has been very often and it really sucks cause its all about me. They are super disappointed with results and the attitude I have. I know I have a short temper at times and when I really get angry shit will just come out of my mouth and yeah thats where I get really naughty. And my sister has been super irritating despite me helping her cover up so many of her wrong doings and help her with so many favors, and she just back stab me by saying all my shit to mum and I get all the nagging and my parents get disappointed again. I don't wanna disappoint them but I just fail to be a good boy with all my bad habits and no matter how hard I try they just don't see it and they blame me for not having self control of not doing the wrong things. No matter how hard I try to make ends meet, they never met before. Maybe, thats just life. There are so many more problems I have and it never ends. why man! why can life be how it was when I was much much younger, so carefree, so beautiful, a life with almost everything perfect. Sometimes I really wonder why the world revolves over having good results, where those who cant study just fail to have a better life in time to come. People like me who tries to study still gets shit results in exams. And my family says i'm not putting in effort at all. What shit is this man. I always wanted my life beautiful, with a wonderful family and a wonderful bunch of friends and results that are good enough to clear the benchmark set by the government. Ain't that nice? But look at my life now, full of problems. Why man! How beautiful life can be? Could it be as beautiful as seeing the sun rise from the east and setting in the west? Could it be as beautiful as a montage with millions giving a big wide smile from the bottom of their heart? I just don't know how beautiful life can be.